I check in with my husband every few weeks, as I promised him, to make sure he's OK as he undertakes his healing journey. Instead of texting me back he now phones me. He's been writing and seeing a therapist to deal with his issues. I don't ask him the details. Every conversation he'll ask me something about his daughter. He'll also always tell me how wonderful it is to talk to me.
I had resolved myself to the idea of divorce not because its what I want but because I'm lonely and crave sharing my life with somebody. He and I have never talked about us. Anytime previously that I brought it up he would say to forget about my marriage. I'm painfully gun shy now.
So he seems to be on the mend, I'm feeling all the hurt that I thought I'd resolved, we haven't discussed our marriage and I'm afraid to bring it up. What is this fresh pain all about? It is obvious that we care very much for each other, but is this simply a friendship? I can't live with that. I suspect he's not with OW anymore but don't know for sure and when she crosses my mind I get so angry. I guess the other side of this is that he doesn't really ask me how I am or what's happening in my life, except when he reached out in january to make sure I wasn't crying anymore.
What is this all about and what action if any should I take? Our mutual kindness and caring is eating away at my patience.
me 45 H 46 T 5 M 2.5 BD Sept 6 2011 OW Sept 8 2011 Threw him out Sept 8 2011
