I'm sorry about this morning. I realize that I'am still making it about me and my hurt feelings and I need to stop. Believe me, I'm trying. I'am trying to listen to you. It's really challenging to not be effected emotionally by your coldness and indifference. Again, I'm trying to fix things and I should just be your friend and listen to you.
I understand that the past matters, and I'am thankful you are willing to go to therapy with and without me to work through it to heal.
I act selfish when I don't want to accept how you feel, as much as it hurts.
If you send that as written, the ONLY thing you will have proven is that you HAVEN'T LEARNED A THING!!!
Actions speak louder than words, what message do you think your actions this weekend sent? What message do you think this letter will send?
You start of by apologizing vaguely, then turn right around and blame her for your actions and words. Actions and words which only YOU have control over. You're not a puppet sitting on her lap!
Re: Her boundaries - your inability to rein yourself in is what will ultimately push her away for good. Her boundaries are a defense mechanism to help her feel safe and comfortable. The more you show no respect for that, the more you need to practice waving goodbye.
Re-read what MrBond wrote earlier; learn from it...
