Yeah I do get it. AAll I can say is that I just can't keep doing this being this way. I need this pain and hurt to stop. I still love my W and want nothing more but to talk to her face to face and to have her come back.
I do not know how to deal with this next I want to just ask my W if she would be willing to have sex. Just a physical thing and will not mean anything. Stupid ha..
