well here we are again, Well I drove past W house 11:30pm and the only car that was there was her girl friends car. Her car is not there. I have no idea what it means, i mean it raises alot of questions now.
1- is she in the house but had to drop her car off at dealer ship.
2- does she have some one she is seeing and is sleeping at his/her house?
3- just were the hell is she
this is so not good. I came home and all i can think of is her having sex with some other person. It if killing me now. Why the hell is she just doing this and talking to me about divorce if she really is sleeping with some one. She has really just cut me off with no contact from her. I just so much want to just send her a note asking what are you doing and hey let be honest here with each other and then ask her look are you dating someone sleeping with someone...
I did start to type an email all i got was Hi Babe, then i well thought i killed it but sent it in error. So i guess she will get the email with only that in it.
What i feel like doing at this point is this,
I want to send her a text or email just saying hi and aasking for the keys back for the storage unit. Also to tell her to use the money in the bank joint account to get the late car payment up to date. the say to her I just wanted to say that I do still love you and i am totaly committed to you untill the end. I will never be the one to cheat on you. We are still married. No matter what way this turns out i do so badly want to talk to you. I know you do as well as you told me an a past email.
I hope you enjoyed the flowers i gave you but i dont think you even got them. but it is what it is.
Again i just want to say you are a very special lady and I have been blessed to have known you. I just wanted you to know that you can call or stop by anytime but best to call to make sure im home. I will never be the person who would cheet on you or anyone. I just cant be and never was that type of person who would just disregaurd the Vows we took in front of God and our friends,
so yell at me all you want guys. i know this is my own making but nothing is happening and im just messed up i guess
