Back to the picnic

[needgrace]

2tp, thank you for that analogy. i think the truth is that i have been grasping at air for a long time now.

thanks for the hugs, 2chiquitos. when i miss her, i try and remember what you have said about how hard it is to piece and be grateful that i am not struggling with that right now.

subguy, thank you for stopping by and for the support. i do feel better again, it is a wave that comes and goes... i need to remind myself of how it passes when it is here.

bug, a good reminder, thanks, i do get ahead of myself a lot.

i went to a party last night. i was invited by a friend i had not seen in years and was not sure if she might think it was a date (lesbian life is so confusing, it is hard to know if someone is asking you somewhere as a friend or something more.) i almost had a panic attack on the way to her house but a kind friend talked me down. i did not want to go, i was really freaked out..

thankfully, the friend that invited me clarified it quickly with some comments about a girl she is dating and i felt much, much better.. the party itself was amazing, there were a bunch of very interesting and attractive women there that i did not know at all... and a DJ and i danced a ton.. i had a truly fabulous time