Life is tough enough without feeling downhearted due to everything you mention as being part of your MO, so maybe can now start a new MO with less negative influences and more inner strength.
I can empathise, I've moved out and found myself in a painful situation but gradually inner strength came through, i was beginning to become happy in myself and my strengths were coming through, but my "wife" cunningly used the children to get me back into the marital home and hence continue to pay the bills and continue to abuse me with intense negativity (freaking out for stupid reasons like leaving the shoes on the wrong side of the corridor), knocking me down regularly but paying all the bills (that's OK).
I want out but don't know how to proceed.
I would welcome comments on my situation as am done with this MO, been 8 years like this, all my friends without exception are telling me I am stupid hanging on like this and am only wasting my life.
