Welcome to the board. Read some threads and you will quickly find you are not alone. We are all going through something similar. Your sitch sounds a lot like mine.
Read all you can and educate yourself. The most important thing right now is to take care of you!! (((MAD)))
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"