Portia, (it's Frozen, AKA Melting now..) I am so very sorry to hear of your parent's passing. My condolences to you and your family. Big hugs.
I can only imagine how you are feeling and expecting the same support from your xSO that you would have had in the past. Experiences like you have had recently often allow for serious clarity and perspective and I imagine that's a lot of what your're experiencing now. I agree with the others to not see your xSO now and am glad to see you owned the decision and took over that control yourself. You're a strong woman, LDR's have to be in the first place.
I don't have any significant words of wisdom other than to continue to take care of yourself and feel your feelings. You're doing very well and, despite the pain of your recent loss, appear to be focused on the what is best for you during this time. I wish you continued progress in your journey.
