OK just venting here i guess, I have been keeping myself busy all day. Lots to get done around the house. Put away xmass decorations out side. I even took my motorcycle out today. I am going to ride tomorrow too.
How ever even being busy why do i still feel like crap. I hate what has happend to me. I have to say that i just cant get my W out of my head no matter what I try. Most of the thinking I have of W are all happy times and I would love to share more with her. Crap what the hell is wrong with her why cant she just do something. I mean for a long time now there has been no movement one way or the other. Crap if she wants a divorce what the hell is she waiting on. She also said she wanted to be friends and was dieing to just talk to me. this was said some time ago. But c'mon does she know that she needs to come to the table and talk. what the heck is she doing. I still want to work it out. But she is so cold i just dont get it.
can some one here please help me to make sense of all this or am i just totally losing my mind!!!! some thing really has to happen here at some point.
