Sitting in the back seat!

[Occy01]

So, told the children.
Adinva, now I understand what you meant. I was a total mess up to the point when we called them into the room. So hard to do, but we kept things simple. I actually saw the exact second that my son's heart broke....

Both cried a while, lots of hugs from myself and W, and reassurances that its nit their fault and we love them.

Put them to bed and took a large whisky! Then got a big hug from W, and she told me well done and how happy she was that I'd picked myself up from a TOTAL mess, and pulled it together when it counted. Think I got some respect there.... And thats great coming from my W who told me on BD that she had no respect for me.

The children have been ok today, but I think the reality of it all hasn't hit them yet. Must be there and be strong when it does...

Can't get the look on my sons face out of my head....