I don't have recommendations - but the one near your house seems a little like a gift from the universe to me.
Can you rearrange some things and go to that?
As far as forgiveness, I don't know about blue and yellow -
You're just dealing with your ego, sweetie.
We all have one.
And your ego wants to keep you separate.
Your ego is terrified of losing this game.
What if you forgive him and he just - I don't know what -
"Gets away with it"
Or
It means you stop respecting yourself.
What are you making forgiveness mean?
No one else can do this for you. No one can tell you the magic formula.
Well, the only magic formula is love. Love for yourself, love for your husband and love for your child.
Love for yourself might look light, I need to leave. It might look like wanting what your husband wants. It might look like accepting reality so that you can free YOU (not him but YOU) and move on with your life.
Anyone else who has done that work had to find their own way through it.
The anger is there b/c it wants you to have created a boundary - and you couldn't have when you didn't know what your husband was up to.
so now it's telling you to create one now. And it's there because you are choosing to be a victim to your husband's behavior.
You are not. He is if anyone.
You are free. You are only choosing to put yourself in this prison.
Maybe because of your past. Or because of your own self-esteem.
But the truth is, May - all the work is inside - not outside - not in other forums or on or off meds or angry or not - it just is -now.
