I went ahead and gave her the check for half. It was the right thing to do.

Also from last night, just remembering the way she worded things:
  • She said that sometimes she just wants to put a tv back in the bedroom, put on old movies, and laugh with me. But that wouldn't be happiness now, it would be happiness from memories.
  • She said she just let go of everything. She wanted me to come back and she wanted who I am now (after 1st BD) until she just didn't anymore...she just let all that go.

She also told me on Sunday that she is still hurting and has some resentment towards me. I take that as better than indifference and also what I have suspected all along even though she claimed to be past all that. Maybe she thought she was past all that or maybe she just didn't want to admit it...I don't know and I'm not going to try and figure it out.

Good night all.

-tmd

M:12y - BD:12/11 - D:6/13 - 4Ds

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -MLK Jr.