It is starting to hit me. I’m staying positive but the next few days will be really tough. H went to buy fridge and mattress at an outlet store early this week and he’s having them delivered today at his new place. He knows I don’t like hearing about anything to do with his new place too much so he’s being considerate and he just tells me that he’d be late for dinner because he’s going to an outlet after work or he’s going to work late because he’s having them delivered at his new place etc.
My friend and I went to see a musical last night and had a great time and I’m planning on continuing to do fun stuff with my friends more after he leaves. But I can’t keep track of the number of times I catch myself welling up just out of blue throughout the day. I usually manage to pull myself together and think happy thoughts but that’s going to be tough the next few days.
On the brighter side though, he’s definitely more engaged with me. This morning he turned away from his computer and asked how the last night’s play was. That almost NEVER happened, even before D was dropped. I was usually the one who would just tell him what I did today when he was still playing games on his computer. I usually had to ask him to pay attention to me when I talked. He continues to wait at the door before he leaves house for work because he knows I would hop on a couch and give him a hug(quite a height difference), hugs me back tight and rubs my back.
I think I will have to ask him tonight if he’s moving out this weekend because I know he was planning on leaving once he got appliances. I have to stay positive but I’m not gonna lie here.. it is hard.
M37 H36 M8 T12 inc 3yr L-dist 7/12:H broke down 10/12:H dad D frm W4. BD soon after 1/13:H wants to leave 2/13:H gpa passed. Feels closer but H still leaving 3/13: S begins
