Stuck..how do I get out???

[tiredndrained]

Just a follow up...he cheated for over a year with a not so stellar woman. When I asked him why he threw it all away he seems to go with he had nothing in our home and I was always nasty and ignored him. No one thinks I am nasty...ever. I am not mean to people. Only him. He said I am delusional because I don't get it through my head that I am the cause of all the things he did and still continues to do.