They know we would be fine without them. We don't have WAS's we have MLC guys! Even though yours goes away for some time he's not gone, he's out playing until he comes back home! Your his home...that's why he brings you to FL, to put home back in his house.
ya think? i wonder. I KNOW what i'm capable of doing - he's soooo busy thnkin he knows me better than i do - YEAH RITE -i don't think he knows A DARN THINg about a person like me. he thinks nice and tough are mutually exclusive - wrong-o.
i don't think he'll ever "wise up" til i'm long gone- OVER him with a capital O - and then, he may (only may) think wtf? i kind of miss her in my life. too darn late man
i have no respect for his "emotional intellect" in life.
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I told him not to threaten anything because I'm now willing to step on any land mines he puts in my place, after that was when he said he wants me to set him free, BOOM! GO! Damn, after that he didn't even leave for work, home all night!
wow- brave you. i wish i was "ready" to go there. at least you now KNOW your h won't - can't leave. (for good or bad that is). it's knowing something about the sitch- one thing.
only thing i know is (i THINK i know that is ) whenever he's "happy" it's because of her- not me. a bad thing to know- but i'm adjusting. i guess i need to get totally accepting of who i am in his life- and it ain't what i thought or what i'd want. and sure don't want for rest of my life.
nevertheless, i guess that's something. and I ONLY THINK i know it.
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It's nice feeling free of wanting him, I really don't,
i don't know what it is i want from him. he was my "family" - i kind of have nothing to be "part of" now. i guess that's why i still have his body around some times- my unwillingness to just float off allllll alone. it's no good tho- really is it? if i don't want to jump on him- and he doesn't even talk or be fun company most of the time- i don't have anything really? but a reminder of what "I thought" i had with him. just my "notion" ... ta da.! anyway- good for you to feel it and know it.
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Your guy is peeking, let him know your there, but he has some boundaries to adhere to, your not a rag doll to be pushed around.
ya think? i don't know. i don't know what he sees. i know am different. i am "pushed around" about one thing alone- his lies and ow. mwd says don't make any demands or talk about r. she also says if you've said it once- don't say it again. assume he heard. i have nothing to say or demand then - it's all been said.
other than STOP IT (again) - BUT i'm not supposed to say it- and he's not volunteering it. and i'm getting mighty worn out and beginning to seriously not care any more - about alot of things... maybe him, and maybe for keeps...???
i've already illustrated my tolerance levels by still existing in his life. (for whatever reasons - my own agenda or my old attachment) so what the heck else is there to have a boundary about? i don't do "fight" - i don't respond to his anger or picking (it's infrequent lately). i sure dont "fear" it like i used to..(yay for that) something about looking the worst possibilities in the face and now hey don't make me flinch (much) anymore.
i would not assume he's stopped screwing around or intending to or wanting to unless he said it & promised. he has not- i don't think he ever will. i'm merely awaiting my own toughness levels to reach max. (well, and hopefully a paying job)
one day he's going to peek out and meet up with fist to the nose or something like that most likely. i've got some big big "stuff" bubbling below the surfce all the time. i've got under control all the time (just) - but it's there nevertheless. who the heck knows what will come along- break the surface and allll that JUNK will spurt out???
ta da - i'm outta here-
work to do- life to have - thanks for note- i'm happy for your good state of mind- i aspire to it also. i'm not so bad today- need to make more time for the people around me who actually like me -it sure is more fun that way than the crabs.
glad we're good today - yay for that. we are okay rite now- and we only have today.
