Thank you - all of you - for your condolences and prayers.
It has been difficult but my memories are all happy ones.
I don't have a lot of time this morning to catch up with everyone else, but I will.
Thank you Snodderly and 25 for your advice. I have taken it.
xSO texted me two "funnies" yesterday. This morning I acknowledged them and then just briefly said not to worry about the day, I had decided to leave town after my business concludes rather than stay. I did not give a reason. For some reason it felt important to me that I cancel before he had the chance to tell me his decision. I felt more in control that way.
In hindsight, this situation brought home to me one of the things pre-bomb drop that I never paid much attention to. Once upon a time, if I was coming to town, he would immediately say great and figure the rest out - there was no "checking schedules" but in the months leading to BD, the hesitation started to occur. I wished I'd paid more attention.
I don't know if he is back with the GF. But I still feel I am getting way less than the truth. I can see why people say that it is tough to get the trust back once it is gone.
