Sitting in the back seat!

[Occy01]

Oh well, the day has arrived. Didn't get much sleep last night, just kept seeing my childrens faces.... W has decided we tell them tonight.
The last few days have been up and down, but today is definitely down.
Going to meet C in an hour, on my own. This one is not an MC, but was recommended by our MC, will help me with myself and my issues. Hopefully will be able to start getting a grip on things.

On BD, asked W if she was having an A. She said no. After talking with colleagues about my Sitch, and the fact that she seems to be pushing forward so quickly( BD 18 Jan, bought house and is moving out 18 march!!) , I begin to have small doubts about her answer. But I don't want to bring it up again. Wonder if this is paranoia, a natural part of this process....

Sad, so very sad