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Thank you KG and Busting for your continued care and support.

Last week, I received the financial settlement papers. There are some minor issues but if all goes smoothly, I will be D in two months.

I did not have much of an emotional reaction at first to receiving the papers, but the last few days, I have been feeling it more intensely.

I have been NC for about 6 weeks after a conversation in January which STBX stated that she is happy in her R with OW. I did not respond well, asked questions about our M and break-up which created confusion and I got emotional. I behaved abysmally, really immature.

Since then, I apologized almost immediately and have been NC in order to protect myself and to make sure I treat my STBX in a respectful and loving way.

I still do not want this D, my W knows that as of that last conversation. I do not think there is anything further that I can do. I have been GALing and enjoying my life for the most part, working on my self growth and my other relationships.

If anyone sees anything further I can do, please let me know. I have been focused so much on me that I have not been thinking lately about what I can do about my M...well, at least not until I got the papers, that is.

Thank you.