Mana Mana! Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo

[Tallula]

[quote=Brian in Hville
Yeah, they would melt as I am in Alabama! Maybe I can drive REALLY fast!

I just read your entire sitch too...So you are going to get some of my blunt comments!

Your husband is a serial cheater. You don't need that in your life. He needs to fix ALL of himself before you should even consider being together again. He is very selfish and childish. The only way he is going to get better is if he WANTS to. He will also need to figure out why he cheats...Without knowing that, he won't be able to stop.

You, on the other hand, are an even more amazing woman than I thought when I first commented in this thread. You deserve unconditional love for you, and ONLY you! You are learning the skills that will make sure your next relationship will give that to you...whether that be your husband, or the man you will find afterwards, you will be strong enough to not settle for anything less!

Brian [/quote]

Thank you for taking the time to read my sitch. And for the DQ offer... and for your very kind words. The rug was pulled out from under me and I'm just getting my sea legs back.

Yeah, each day I move so much closer to not even entertaining the idea of R with H. He would need to do a complete 180. He is in IC and wants to WANT to fix that which is broken in him. I just don't know that I'm willing to put myself through anymore. Its really only recently begun to sink in that this man has cheated on me our entire M. This past year, I saw a few signs. First time in our R that we were disconnected. I flat out asked him, he lied of course. But when I think about the years...there was NO CLUE!! Everyone is floored. H is a charmer. He is fun to be around, a very giving person. But maybe it was all a manipulation, leading this double life? So, how would I ever truly trust him?

I do deserve much, much better. I am human, with faults of course!! But, I'm am really great catch. It's hard! I've been with this man since I was 22. He was my best friend, my teammate, my partner. I refuse to believe it was a lie. I know that he does love me. But he is incapable of loving me like I deserve. Honestly, like anyone deserves. Even him. It is sad. I do have a window cracked. I can't legally D him until I have this baby, so one day at a time until August.

It is going to take work for me to keep detached. I love him. I just do. But, I love me more. I just need to show me that.

Ok...that was way to cheesy. Quick, someone make an inappropriate joke...