New to board-help

[JBolt]

I'm struggling with the thought of why I'm fighting so hard for someone who I no longer respect. At least not the new W. she disgusts me and I can barely stand to see her......So angry at her stupidity.

I'm in the exact same place bro. Our appt with the mediator is next week. I guess her last request for D was the straw that broke the camel's back. Since then, all I can see is the new zombie W. Selfish, confused, cold, indifferent, lying, and just generally stupid. The polar opposite of the woman I married.

The new but far from improved W has so poisoned the well, I'm even having trouble remembering what it was like before BD!?! If I think about STBXW, all I can see in my minds eye is the drive home from our first and only MC session. She screamed STFU at me when I tried to talk to her and continued to scream how F'd she was over and over. The MC told her she couldn't have a H and a BF at the same time. That was the moment I knew we were in uncharted territory. I never thought it could happen, but after 5 months of this, I have truly stopped giving a sh#t about her. I do feel very bad that my kids, like yours are seeing and living this as well.
J