Portia, My heartfelt condolences go out to you and your family. I am so sorry to come here today and read that your parent has passed away. Take the time to grieve and do not allow anyone to tell you when you should stop grieving. You will know when you have healed.
As for your XSO, I don't think you are ready to face him or have a meet up. I think you would end up providing emotional support to him and his selfishness, w/o him giving anything in return. However, that's my opinion.
Please take care of yourself. This is your time to devote to you and also your family. If your XSO really loves you, he will be there waiting for you when you are ready to meet up w/him and he will listen and support you the proper way.
THIS^^^...and besides, if anything were to be "new" or noticed, it'd be you cancelling first. I cannot see any realistically good outcome at this time, for YOU.
Go heal...and God bless.
I think the death of a parent is an under rated event. I've lost one, as has h. My mom now has rapidly declining dementia.
No way out but through it -and It just sukks.
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