Hi Tallula - I just stopped by to see how you were - and you sound fantastic!
In the last thread, when you were discussing H coming on to you and then he turned it around, I just about screamed What the.. out loud here at my desk. Kudos for how you handled it.
Keep up the great attitude and take care of yourself
Yeah, that's pretty much where he is at right now. It all has to be "his" decision. He even talks about moving out like it was his idea. He would have stayed in the house forever if I hadn't set my boundary.
I see this more clearly now than ever, that he wants/thinks I will always be here, waiting for him to decide. He knows I have all the information now. I know he is still in contact with OW, but he tries to have sex with me, says he misses me, etc. Pulling away is the best thing for him to see that I'm not always going to be here waiting. Because, frankly, today I really don't see me being able to move on from this with him. I am not shutting the door completely, but I deserve much better than this. Time will tell if he wants to work at being faithful. Today, he doesn't. So, today, I'm not an option.
Still feeling a bit blah today. Having some OW thoughts. Panicky. I know its normal, but I just can't wait for the day these thoughts don't invade my POM. I can push them out much faster than I use to, so there is a plus.
M: 9 yrs T: 13 yrs H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs Dbing 12/12 S 1/13 7/13 H moved back in basement. 8/13 #3 born 10/13 still cheating 10/13 He moves across country, I file for D
