Sitting in the back seat!

[Occy01]

Hi adinva...thanks for coming by...

Sorry to see that you have Friday hanging over your head. I really dreaded telling my kids, and I thought it would be the worst thing ever. I really didn't want to claim any part of it either, because it was entirely my H's idea.

EXACTLY how i feel. Every waking moment is consumed with the thought of breaking my childrens hearts. Don't want to claim responsability for D, its W idea. (But i am aware that i am also responsable for the fact at we are here...)

It ended up pretty awful. I was a basket case all the while I thought it was imminent, and then when it finally happened I was just about shaking uncontrollably I was so upset. But I didn't want to make it easy on myself, or try to manage what would be said or felt, too much. I wanted my kids to cry if they were going to cry, or possibly not if they didn't. Whichever was right for them.

Can imagine your pain. Will probably end up in the same `basket` tomorrow. Am absolutely dreading this. As you know, I am not interseted in making W out to be the bad one, but I don´t know if a can go along with "We have decided" or " "Its a mutual decision" Or do you think I am just being stubborn/childish? Also will tell them its not their fault, I love them and I will be living here in their family home. They will be with me every other week.

Both my boys cried. It was heart wrenching to me.

Must have been devastating. Especially under such times when you / LBS is in such a fragile place emotionally.

I think as much as you plan, it's going to be horrible, and you'll get through it, and life will go on

I agree. I believe this is something that we cannot plan out to detail. Take each moment as it comes, and act on the childrens reactions. Try to be strong, for them.

I'm sorry for what you're going through. Rely on your counselor, and write here to get it all out of your system, and love those kids like crazy.

Thanks again adinva. Will be meeting C tomorrow, will obviously be talking of this and trying to get some strength to help me through this, so I can be strong enough for my children.

Will probably be here tomorrow night (Swedish time), after childrens bed time, venting and telling my news. Helps to write it down here, gets thoughts in order. So thankful to have found this forum and for the members who take time to ´be there´.