In speaking your truth, you begin to take back your power and heal. I'm sending you strength. ((((()))))
Thank you SD, If your ever in TN let me know I'd love to buy you a cup of coffee.
Bug and Ruby, thanks for your support I know I can always count on you.
Funny thing is I put this memory off as a dream or a fantasy. Thats how I dealt with it. This put ideas into my head about who I was. if i dreamed or fantasized about it I must be a bad person. I acted and reacted to a lot of things based on this "fantasy". I tried to prove to myself I was good, always living with the "fantasy" of what happened instead of realizing it did happen and I am not the guilty person. Man have I got some stuff to iron out with my IC lol.
I'm thinking about not telling my wife about this until she is ready to hear it with out feeling sorry for me. I don't want sorry for me. I want my wife to understand my pain and walk with me through it not feel guilty and come back for ANY wrong reasons.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
