Treading water

[Grizz]

PON, Bond and 25, I can't express enough how grateful I am that you vets are providing your insight to me.

Bond, W has initiated. The last time was about 3-4 weeks ago. Actually the most recent time, I turned over in bed and hugged/held her ( hoping to ML) but she actually made the "first move".

25, early on after we ML, I did feel sad. We actually discussed whether we should continue to ML because we were both so confused and we both felt sad afterwards. After thinking about this for a few days I came to the conclusion that we should continue to ML. I told her how I felt. Long story short, we resumed. I don't feel that sadness anymore. I am not sure why, I just don't.

"Why would I not want to ML?"... My only answer is that it may be considered pursuit which DB is strongly against.

When she has declined I have been able to take it in stride. I have not shown any anger or hurt.

I would like to say that I do not try very often. I was very fortunate in that we have always had a great sex life. ML was never an issue. So just to put it into perspective, our sex life has really decreased in frequency.

I guess I will continue to try to occasionally initiate ML with no expectations that she will be willing.

Again, thank you guys for your insight. I hope you will continue to check in on my sitch and chime in whenever you see fit. You give me such hope.