Sitting in the back seat!

[Occy01]

Thanks for your reply and encouragement adinva. Probably don´t need to tell you how great it feels that someone, somewhere in the world is taking time to read my posts and answer/offer advice...

Little more background stuff.. W complains frequently of my ego. Says that everything must be about me. If i am tired, not in a good mood etc then she says its more important for me to show the family this, instead of just swallowing it and creating a calm, happy atmosphere. She also mentioned this to MC. No surprise to me, I am aware of my past failures and am seeking counselling to get to terms with this. Reading ´The power of now`and 'A new Earth`by Eckhart Tolle to try understand a bit more about myself, and learn about a new way of thinking.

There have been many arguments in the past, but no active solution seeking to our problems. Just sweep it under the mat, apologise and move on. W just said she can´t take it anymore. Promise of change never lasted, and now its a case of too little too late... I understand that I never took her seriously, when she told me how upset she would often be, how it hurt her etc...Until BD. The shockwave that hit me, well, that´ll teach me for taking her for granted!!