Treading water

[Grizz]

Thanks for checking in labug and PON.

I appreciate your straight forward responses. I have backed off of the pursuit compared to several months ago but I do need to continue to back off more. This is hard. Nobody said it would be easy. The weekends seem to be when I backslide some. Probably because I am around her more. Maybe I need to start getting out of the house even more on the weekends.

For my self growth: reading (I have never been a reader except for the sports page), trying to change my passive aggressive tendencies and spending more time with "just the guys". I have always been very involved with my kids and I will continue to be. Except now there are 3 of us instead of 4 that do things together.

I think I am the next great fortune teller. I may even head to Vegas to cash in on this. Actually, I try to read her mind all of the time and it is awful. I have to stop doing this before I go totally insane.

I love your statement about " start doing things and don't worry about W reaction."
I definitely think about her reaction prior to doing just about anything. I know, over analyzing.

Both of you eluded to, do what is right and don't worry about what she thinks. That is a very good point.

Thanks again for all of your insight and support.

One more question. I know I need to stop pursuing. But if I initiate ML, she usually will. I think that this helps keep some sort of connection which is a good thing but it is definitely pursuing. Any thoughts?