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[MrBond]

"He also said that its ok for me to cry and if she doesn't see that it's her problem."

True to a point. She told you that she wished you had taken care of your issues before. If you want to save your M, don't do it in front of her.

"I'm being me and being honest when Im grieving. He said that I should try to do things w kids without her, try not to see her so much because it hurts me."

It's because you ALLOW it to hurt you. She was opening herself up to you a little and you need to feed off of the little positives.

"He said I need to be w a woman who can love me for who I'am. He said Im a good guy and I should t be to hard on myself, that Im carrying a lot of weight on my shoulders and he thinks Ive made good progress so far."

He's validating you.

"She is not communicating w me much now, being short on the phone etc.
He said I should leave her alone and not play into her games, that is my power and all that I can do now."

That is how she's been after every one of your breakdowns. She's not playing "games". She was honest with you before and has told you a number of times that she couldn't handle your emotional outbursts any longer. YOU are going to have to learn to control that. Seeing her as "playing games" or as the enemy isn't going to help because you lack the basic coping skills to deal with her right now. Continue to get yourself strong and rebuild your self-esteem.