Last night was uneventful, other than W opening up a little about the new job after she got home from work. Told her it's not easy going from being a business owner to being a manger of someone else's business, and that I was proud of her for making that transition so gracefully.
I woke up sick this morning - yea me... Tried early on to get an appt with the doc but couldn't get thru. W send a text to me saying she was sick and had an appt at 11:45am. Told her I was too and that I had been trying to get an appt. We go to the same doc so she told me to tag along.
While at the office (always a 2 hour wait) W was on & off her cell phone dealing with the tax issue from her previous business partnership. When she got off the phone, I could tell she was very angry. I told her I was sorry she had to go thru this, and that it wasn't right. W then said, 'well, if had listened to you all (the kids, me and her friends) this wouldn't be happening.' She again said that this was just the tip of the iceberg, and there's so much more that I don't know.
I can't imagine the cesspool of emotions going thru her right now. When the new business started in Feb of 2012, I'm sure she looked at it as a way out of our M. I think her backtracking in May was the realization that it wasn't going to be that way. She waffled back and forth all during the summer, but, acted happy during the fall - (even though I knew something wasn't right). We ML almost every other day from mid-September until the first week of November.
As our birthdays and the holidays started coming in, she withdrew again and then asked for a separation and a place of her own on Dec 21. Now here we are in March of 2013, she's talking some about the future, even referring to the house as HER house now. But, we still do not discuss M/R issues and we sleep in separate beds and haven't really touched each other sexually since November... Yes, it is definitely a sex starved marriage.
I have no clue if any real progress is being made, but, it's been one hell of a roller coaster ride. And not a fun one, either...
