No it's not crazy - not at all. I feel exactly the same way. I miss my W more than I ever thought possible - unfortunately at this point in time she doesn't feel the same.

Do not pursue!

W 39 Me 33 M 9yrs
8 year old Son
ILYBINILWY - Dec 12
W moved out - Jan 2013
OM - Jan 2013
I file for D - May 2013