Sitting in the back seat!

[Occy01]

But just throwing in the towel, causing so much pain and destruction, leaving behind her broken hearts and home, I find hard to understand. Does she hate me that much that it is better to go down this path, instead of trying to work on repairing our R???

Just read through this post from last night. Feels like some of the answers are staring me in the face...

"Throwing in the towel".. Yes she is, for now.

"Leaving behind broken hearts and home"... Thats something I have control over. I decide if its broken or not. I can affect this. Not only for me, but most importantly for my children. I also understand that she's not leaving it behind, she is certainly also hurting, also suffering.

"Does she hate me that much....." No. I don't believe she does. She wants me to be happy, wants us to be friends. And yes, just now she wants to, needs to walk this path instead of working on our R. Understand this, but its so hard to accept.

Today is yet again an up and down day.

Must work more on PMA!!