Limbo Land III

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I'm starting to believe that DB only really has a chance in a marriage, as many attempted to point out to me early on. Without that built in commitment there just isn't any leverage (for lack of a better word) with the SO. Since it was just a gf the needy/clingy behavior didn't help, but me just going dark and dating/sleeping with others doesn't phase her.

AS, you dated, you didn't sleep with any of them?

My gf was more than a vagina to me but awhile ago I became nothing more than an annoying roommate who provided a free place to live to her. I'm not attached to any of these new girls. I can have some fun, sex or not, with them. Yes, there are times there's no sex and some of them just no sex is going to happen. It's GALing but yea, I still think about my ex a lot.

I get wrapped up in the "happy" thoughts of when things were better. We had that connection and I miss her & the kids. I get on the verge of telling her I miss her and still love her, and I stop myself. I remind myself it'll do no go. I think about the "bad" stuff that happened between us so I don't end up with rosé colored glasses.

Interesting bit, for somebody who doesn't miss me & doesn't think about me at all she checks up on my Facebook and talked about me a good bit to my friend. My friend has gone dim on her, polite short responses. Friend told me that ex said wants me to see other ppl. Whatever, I'm trying not to read too much into it, it's just more a puzzlement to me why she's checking my FB and talking about me if she wants nothing to do with me.

MrBond, I'm not playing games with the girls. I've been honest with them that I'm not going to get into a serious relationship or go exclusive anytime soon. Thanks goes out to MMSL for some of this. And the article, I say it's interesting b/c of what garbage it is and how it perpetuates the divorce culture.

Maybe I am a little messed up and have more work to do on myself. I never wanted my first marriage to end. I honestly had wanted to marry my ex-gf and have it be the last marriage for both of us. What I want, or wanted, can however be a stark contrast to reality.