Hi BRNR. Trust is a funny thing. Once broken, it's very hard to repair. It can be done, but it takes a very long time of being trustworthy. Even then, it remains in the back of the mind for a while.
You are doing well in your thoughts and how you handle things. I agree with your thoughts and feel you are doing all the right things in this situation. It's just that this doesn't stop overnight or as soon as we'd like. Your H has a long way to go and still needs to figure himself out. If he decides to come back to the marriage, it will be after he feels safe to do so and after he figures himself out. If he does. He seems to be trying to figure himself out.
Be patient and you'll see how this turns out.
How are things going on the medical front? How are the kids?
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
