Today my H asked me to pray for his death because he's not coming back and he hates life! Don't test me buddy, your not in my good graces! I'm starting to hate him!

I'm getting angry and my anger goes to my back debilitating me! I almost left today for a hotel, I'm feeling if I don't go, I maybe will end up in the hospital with my back like it is. As soon as he left tonight the pain subsided.

I can feel hate for him flushing through me like a fire! I don't even care what happens to him! I have been trying to get away during the day, not involve myself with him but staying away 24/7 doesn't help when all he needs is 20 seconds to act like a complete waste life.

How can I hate someone I'm still trying to work with until the is an outcome? What am I holding out for? Nero, is this really for nothing?

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!