"but ive decided i couldnt bury my head and i,m not the type to hide my feelings."
That's where you're wrong. No one said you had to "hide your feelings", HOWEVER, that can easily come out as you being more superior that others. When you feel that YOUR way is the RIGHT way, no one wants to be around that.
"it was to hard for me to look in the mirror and bite my tongue."
Well that's your issue.
"if she doesnt try to own her stuff at some point then how can you ever trust her?"
You see, you don't understand how she works. Rather than being compassionate and sympathetic to what she is going through, you are isolating her. I have a feeling that you may have criticized the way she did things in the past, or did so without knowing, and "expected" many things of her and that if she did not meet those expectations, you would say something about it. But all that does is massage your own ego and doesn't take into account how she feels.
The fact that you're still holding on to her apologizing says that. And I have a feeling that she's afraid that if she came back, you would forever hold it over her.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
