The hot and cold is tough to take. Even if you are looking for it, it is still tough. It actually kills me that she is so down (I can't say depressed because that has gotten me into trouble before). She had an appointment this morning close to my work and she stopped in to say hey. Definitely not as cold as yesterday.
I am my own worst enemy. The entire time we were talking this morning all I could think was how beautiful and sexy she is and all I want to do is hug her. This does not help my PMA.
It's just hard. Plain and simple. Just when I think I'm detaching, I'm not. I just keep trudging along. One foot infront of the other.
M: 9 yrs T: 13 yrs H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs Dbing 12/12 S 1/13 7/13 H moved back in basement. 8/13 #3 born 10/13 still cheating 10/13 He moves across country, I file for D
