Treading water

[Grizz]

Thanks for the reply. She does not get upset if I do things with my D. It only seems to be if I go out with friends.

I am totally lost with initiating contact. Obviously there are times when she is open to it since we ML. Actually I am going to stop calling it ML. Seems like it is just sex to her. That hurts to type that.

Now the most recent development......guess who is back in the other room tonight to sleep? Yep the W. after being back in our bed for the past several nights. We have sex last night and now she is back in other room. Go figure.

So she just now comes in our room softly crying and says " I am sorry that I am hurting you". I told her that I know that she is hurting too and I am sorry that she is hurting. I told her I just want her to be happy. That I don't want M to end but if that is what is going to make her happy then maybe that is where we are heading. She kissed me on the cheek and went to the other room.

I haven't cried in a while until now. And here I sit sobbing like a d@mn fool. This is awful!