Hi all, was away for a bit...had the flu (went through the house, ugh!), then the kids vacation and got to spend a lot of time with them. We had fun sledding, went to the movies, and played a lot of games.
For support going forward, at this point I'm feeling ok. I'm chugging along, paying bills/debts, and saving some money, which feels good. I've been hooking up with friends once/week which has been great. I've also been re-connecting with extended family (cousins and whatnot), that I've lost touch with (mostly because H didn't want to go out and get together with them - he comes from an extremely small family, and my family is huge (70+ first cousins). And though I'm not writing a lot on the boards (yet), I've been reading all the threads, which have been really helpful.
I've also been able to have alone time, which I've really needed, to work through some of my thoughts and emotions. I'll have times where I just break down crying, and other times where I've been so angry.
I will definitely need support when I tell H I'm ready to end this marriage. The more I think about what his reaction will be, the more I think he'll beg me to stay. So I'm preparing for that and want to remain strong...Hope everyone is doing well.
