Need advice. Here's my story

[Jeack]

Oh I know and she's said that. Neither one of us communicate properly then when I try talking to her about what's wrong she leaves. I guess I don't really trust her not to leave every other month. I know we both love each other. But it's always in the back of my head that she'll leave. It's so hard not to call her right now and I'm second guessing not being her friend right now like she wanted to be. Did I mess up? I guess I want her to miss me and feel like I'm done in order for her to take her own responsibility in the breakdown of the M. Is that stupid?