Thank you for the responses. I have been struggling with my emotions the last few weeks. My W's unresponsiveness to me or better yet her not communicating at all with me has worn me down. I felt rejected and utterly alone. I was ready to file for a divorce because I thought she had moved on. Until today, now I'm confused and hopeful/hurting again. Let me explain what happened.

After my wife said she would not give me access to my daughter, I tried to let it go, however I eventually let it out in an unhealthy way. I did not curse or scream but I did not act like an adult either. Again no communication for a few weeks after that and she said she was done gonna file immediately. Today after church I took my daughter and a few of her girl friends out to eat and was dropping them off at my w's place. She came out to talk to me. She asked me about our taxes etc. Then she said that she would never use our D against me, I said okay, i believe you. She also said that she had a lot of issues to work thru and possibly in a year or so we could get back together if I was still around and was willing. WHAM!!! right between the eyes. I said that I would be here, that I was going no where. If she ever needed to talk that I would be available. I also said that I was working on me and trying to change who I was for the better.

I have been praying for God to give me an answer as to what I should do and I believe he is speaking directly to me. The timing was about 1 week before i was going to see a lawyer. She may file for divorce to have all pressure off of her, I do not know what the future holds for us. I do know that I will stand a while longer and continue to improve me. My communication, my demeanor, my attitude, my life.

As a side note my d14 helped a friend out that was cutting herself. My daughter went to her guidance counselor and let them know what she was doing. My D said she did not care if her friend got mad at her. She loves her and does not want her to hurt herself. Wow I have an amazing daughter, thru all this pain she is suffering she thought of someone else and what they were struggling with. I need to learn a lesson from this amazing young lady.

You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.