Sorry Am2012 thought I posted a reply to you...guess not...
Well we can start together!
Thanks for the support too...
I have decided to start going to Yoga and Zumba on the 13th got a babysitter lined up and will be beginning...H always told me to get out and do things...told me when he left that I had to make myself happy...so that others around me are happy too...
H thinks I was an unhappy woman...I did not see this about myself...a lot of my unhappiness steemed also from H being out of town and away from home so much...
I love my H so much and love to have him around but because of the resentment could not bring myself to get out of my own way to show him how much I loved him and missed him until it was too late...
Also the pressure of another child at this time did not help...I think H did/does not want another child and had not for sometime but could only start telling me in Dec, when I brought it up. Which of course I took defense too.
I can't change the situation now, but wish that H could have been more open to me at the time and I could have been more receptive to it...
I also should have looked more at how hard it would have been for me dealing with two children and H working away so much.
If H and I look at R we need to look at our living sitch...do we need this big house, the toys we have, etc., if less finances made it so H could work less and be home more than that would be great...
Hard thing is that to R I think H might have to look more at his job...this is a huge stress for me, h and our s. Him being gone so much lately since BD has not been that big of a change...this I fear is not a good thing for I or H. H is going on 10 days with out seeing s since he was born...this may effect him some...we will see...
