Time without your kids is hard. Bottom line. When I get down about it, like today when my niece was saying her ABCs and I had to leave the room because D2 & she ate the same age & she kept asking for her, I told myself "do you want to be better, or bitter!?!" it's my mantra now.
We've been dealt a crappy hand. Sob!cry! Feel it!! But know that this won't break you. You will not feel this way forever!!!
M: 9 yrs T: 13 yrs H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs Dbing 12/12 S 1/13 7/13 H moved back in basement. 8/13 #3 born 10/13 still cheating 10/13 He moves across country, I file for D