Had a great time at the Irish festival last night. Went on campus today and met two other online students who live fairly close by. We exchanged contact info, so that's good.
My phone is having issues receiving texts, so I found out that my text convo with H early yesterday am didn't end when I thought it did since he sent me four more messages that I got about 17 hours later.
I thought it was pretty interesting, although I still don't have any expectations that anything will change.
H: I'm just tired of all of this. It wasn't supposed to be this way. You were supposed to be it... IT!!!! Why are we here at this point?
M: I don't have the answer to that. But I do think that a lot of people give up on their first marriages too easy. They think it should be happily ever after with no effort. And that's not real life.
This is the point where I thought the conversation ended. I believe every word I said and am not pursuing him anymore, so I was ok with it.
Instead H sent the following.
"I'm thinking you are very right!!!
He then told me to go to bed, that he was very drunk, and to have a good night.
Good thing I didn't get that until I was rushing out of the house to meet my friends or I might have tried to read too much into it.
H just thought that he was unhappy and that if he got away from me his life would be fun and exciting. And maybe it is, but he's still not happy and he's starting to realize that.
I wish he'd go see his IC again, but he thinks he can't afford it.
He admitted to "wasting time" with current OW. I wish he'd have the strength to dump her and figure out things on his own. SS will be here in three weeks and I'd really like him to have a strong, confident father as a role model.
M36 XH34 M-5 T7 4/11 H confused 5/11 ILYB 6/11 OW discovered 7/11 I move out, OW over 5/12-OW2,done->new EA, but H wont file 9/12 H "best bf ever" to EA/OW3 3/13 H/OW break up H files 4/13 D 6/18/13
