I love hearing from others of ways to better myself. I really am trying. Its just sometimes it is discouraging when it feels like an attack. I need to get over this. I do t have this problem when in person, and actually find it very easy to admitt fault and take blame. But somehow on here, it is hard for me to keep in mind that everyone is just trying to help.
I will try harder guys....beginners mind!
On a more positive note, had an incredible day yesterday! Closed on my new business, paperwork signed and have the keys.
I sent a mesage to all of my family our family chat room to tell them the fod news. Everyone was so proud and happy for me, it felt good to know so many are supporting my business effort.
Then I got a nessage from W who was at OM and didnt know it was closing day. I keep her out of the loop a little so she can feel left out.
She said wow baby I didnt know it was today. Why didnt you tell me I would have stayed home for it. I am leaving now and heading over there. She left his house at 10.30 am which is the earliest ever, but not reading into that. Maybe he was busy?
When I go home from work, wife had gotten D3 bathed and in bed, and had cooked an awesome home made dinner. It was fresh lobster and fetuccini alfredo! She said lets scelebrate this awesome achievement. I am so proud of you and how driven you are!
Those are the words of afirmation that she had been withholding. They are starting to come ou now. That was one of my litle goals was to try to achieve some sort of praise from W.
Anyway, turns ou her and OM had yet another fight. Two fights in 3 days. Found out when her girlfriend posted on fb asking wife if the argument had 'quietened down' after her friend supposedly left there on thursday night (left om house). Wife looked at her phone a few times during the evening and looked a little mad and acted like she was ignoring someones messages.
So today I am taking one of my employees with me to the new store to setup everything so we can open on Monday. Very VERY excited! This project is just what I needed for both financial reasons and morale. Hopefully I is a successsful venture.
Wife gave me a hug and a little kiss on the cheek for confratulations last night. Mos affection given sinc BD.
Tonihht I am taking my employees out for dinner to celebrate the business growth. No wife is not coming because I havent invited her. She can spend a saturday night on her own for the first time maybe in her life
Me, H-34 now 38 W-32 now 35 T-13 now 18 years M-6 now 9 Daughter 3 years now 7 Bomb 11/27/12 - OM 1 year in house separation Reconciliation 12/2013. Healed now 2017
