Another dollar in my one-man show

[Big Bruce]

Easy, easy on the replies,
Those were just thoughts. I won't act on it.
I guess this type of fantasies come easy to me for three reasons :

- I am not really home here. I already worked in different countries in the past, and I know you can re-start from 0 when you change places. Thus the temptation.

- The amounts asked of me every month (until June) are ridiculous, and, check that, W is now pursuing 50% of the assets in France! Now that's dishonest, because she knows very well that I brought the downpayment for the mortgage. This is debatable, but I made every payment. If the two parties should part ways, why should she get out of it richer than she ever brought in or earned ? Especially after three years of marriage?

- My older cousin got Ded a couple of years ago. Same thing, W left him. He changed countries, and guess what, he met a kind girl, and they're expecting a baby now. So happy for him, all is good that ends good.

Mentally, I'm being tumbled to every side, like a dirty rag in a washing machine, and even my driving has worsened. People honk at me because they're mad, and I don't even care. I don't look at who is honking or swearing or why, I just keep doing my thing.. it's so asocial.

Maybe 25yearsmic is right, I don't have any coping ability. In truth my life has been so good until now that I don't know what to do in the face of adversity or contrariety. This one has knocked me off.

So I go to C today, and she tells me that I can't control W, and I can only control me. Duh, I know... I'm so disappointed.

Oh Lord, please help me...
Pretty please..