BF, you know your H, so if you felt more caring from his part, it's probably true. It seems your H is having a MLC, which you probably had already determined.
I'm sorry to hear you haven't been feeling well. Have you felt like this for a while? Do you ever get a really "good day?" You need those good days. What brings you joy? Write down at least five things, and post them. Then, do one of them...this weekend! Even if it's to get a bubble bath or to eat a warm brownie topped with ice cream. Whatever it is, do something that brings you joy this weekend.
This is not easy. Try to step out of the situation and think of something else at least during part of the day.
