The point of this site is to work on changing oneself. But you seem to be using these boards in other ways, to bash H and to gain feelings of superiority in other ways. The self-medicating to which I refer is not venting, or at least not only in the continuing stream of H-bashing. It is in your defensive posts to others that appear to me to be an unhealthy form of self-medication.
The best chance you have for a healthy M is to become healthier yourself. Certainly no guarantees that it will fix your M.
Research shows that writing is more helpful.
You might read back on all your threads and notice that you resist most suggestions with something very similar to the last line of your post. This resistance combined with the hostile defensiveness suggests to me that you remain stuck.
To get unstuck requires dropping the defensiveness, the resistance, the arrogance. I wish I could do that for you, but I can't. Only you have the power to take genuine steps in that direction.
