"Maybe in ten years, I'll get in touch, S will understand: there was nothing more I could've done, W was too hard on me, all her family is against me, I'm not on my turf, not able to proceed anymore, I gave up."
Wow this sums it all up. You really haven't changed. You're still thinking of yourself over the needs of your son.
"Just ideas, just ideas..."
The problem is that you actually have those ideas to begin with. For me, I'd drive 8 hours if I could see my kids. I guess all that talk about how you'd do "anything" for young Bruce was all a lie.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
