Sexless marriage. H Left. Now retrouvaille in 3wks

[AM2012]

I have tried to talk to him about this but he is very angry with me. How could I do this to him. What a terrible marriage we have had because of this etc. now I am being the One rejected by him and it hurts, hurts so bad. My intentions were never to hurt him. I never realized this impact.

I have been tested and I am extremely low in testerone. After being on supplements things on an intimacy level changed , however he was too far gone. He was at the point that he felt he couldnt be intimate with me. Anytime something did happen he told me it just felt wrong.

Thank you for the advice. I do need to build empathy because he feels that I am trivializing how he feels and he's right. I might be.
I do have that book, however I have yet to read it as I feel we are so far from anything intimate right now. We don't even hug, touch. NOTHING
He wants to find someone that loves him. He feels worthless right now. All the rejection I have imposed on him has left him very damaged.

He keeps telling himself that we could never be intimate again and this is obviously causing a huge wedge between us moving forward.
If he's not attracted to me anymore, I can't change that. I truly don't know what to do.