Things keep trucking along. Heartbreak, emotions, and me trying trying trying not to get sucked up in drama, disappointment, trying to detach. Hard to do. Especially when he's in my house pretty much every day, acting so happy and normal.
There is nothing to say. More lies discovered, more disappointment. I know the future is bright, but right now is bad. The divorce proceedings will be stressful and probably cause more problems. The kids finding out about the affair will be a new layer of pain and conflict....this is yet to come...not sure when...
I am sick of my life. I long for boring problems. The drama is stressful and overwhelming. Every day something new. Just when I think it can't get worse...there is more...and more to come. and every day I get up, smile and laugh and play with the kids, keep our home clean, put food on the table, and pour out my heart to my friends that lift me up. What I would do without them is not even worth thinking about.
Off to therapy today and I have no idea what to say. I am strong but am reaching my breaking point. I need some respite from my life and there is none in sight.
That's the state of my life. So sick and tired of my life right now.
